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Into the Darkness: Random Thoughts of a Suicidal Mind

 
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Mid life crisis?

Lately, I keep finding myself saying, “I never envisioned myself starting over at this age,” or “I never thought I’d be here, at this...

Sometimes

It's such a disturbing feeling, constantly waking up wanting to die or wishing you were dead. I mean, how can you be that depressed when...

Holiday anxiety

It's said to be the season for caring and sharing, better to give than to receive is what we want to perceive. But Santa brings the...

Scrambled thoughts of Anxiety Pt. 1

I've touched on my social anxiety before. But I've noticed that the longer I'm laid off, the worse it's getting. Not just going out and...

Strength in numbers

When I first [finally] decided to pursue writing (about my experiences with mental health issues), as a (possible) career, I wavered back...

Congratulations, Madame Vice President!

Ever since Joe Biden chose Kamala Harris to be his running mate, I’ve been seeing everyone bashing her. Women who claim to support other...

Election Day Anxiety!

Brace yourself It's election day! Though we might not have the results right away, Some are hoping for  the best, while others pray....

A woman's purpose

I know I've already written about abortion but I just came across a meme and it triggered this anger inside me! "Look at your bodies...

Me vs Me

The silence is deafening When it’s your own voice Screaming inside your head Trying to convince you To drown yourself in the sheets Of...

Weird habits

Alright, let's talk weird habits. Since moving out on my own, I've noticed I'm (what I've decided to call) a semi food hoarder. I have...

Comparing Diseases

I know this is going to sound weird, extreme, possibly even cruel but sometimes I wish I was Bipolar. At least then I'd experience the...

Sleep

No matter how much sleep I get, it's never enough! I never wake up feeling refreshed and ready to go. I wake up tired and wanting to go...

I'm not SHY

It sweeps over me like a waive, not a cool refreshing little beach waive, this is an angry, destructive, title waive, a tsunami consuming...

At least TRY

As someone who's dealt with depression all her life, I've gotten good at (or used to) ignoring it or hiding it or pushing it aside to...

Happiness

Happiness is just an illusion                                      Happiness is just an illusion! we're all trying to find.           ...

Was I ever normal?

Anyone else spend the last 6 months of the pandemic being completely fucking useless and accomplishing absolutely fucking nothing? Just...

Introduction/Warning

I've dealt with depression, anxiety, and thoughts of suicide for as long as I can remember. Hell, there was a time in my life where years...

 

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